September 13, 2007
WOW. It has been like, THIRTEEN days since I updated this thing!
I was too busy. Hee. Sorry bebehs and dudes.
Alot has been going on since I last updated.
Amazing how things can change so fast.
It's like you're snapping your fingers, and poof,
Another scene.
Poof,
Another scene.
But it seems like everytime I snap my fingers,
I am in different2 scenes.
With the same situation.
This has been going on for 2 and a half years.
Maybe it ends now.
I hate to be a pessimist but I must admit,
I am one.
Better get yourself prepared for the worst,
Than to be stupid and naive like how I used to be and look where I ended up being at.
I'm not a negative pessimist.
I am a positive pessimist.
Know the difference baby.
Ok so...
Did I mention my MSN convo with her...
Like..
How many weeks ago was that?
We chatted halfway and my laptop got jammed.
I went online again, she was already gone by then.
So anyways.
We chatted and chatted and chatted.
I felt like what I said did have a point,
Did have a strong point, even.
But it was like as if the words i said weren't being processed in her brains through her skull.
Great points often receive violent opposition from mediocre minds.
So she has moved on.
So should I.
There just isn't any point at all.
I used to believe in karma,
Now I don't.
Karma is bullshit.
So I guess this is where our friendship silently ends.
In spite of everything I still want to believe that all beings of mankind are really good at heart.
I simply can't build up my hopes on a foundation consisting of confusion, misery and death. only.
Oh well.
That's the way life goes.
God didn't choose for a certain individual to lead a suffering life.
It's just random.
Here, there, and then there was Me.
I'm learning to be wise though.
Heho.
I think it's kindda simple to be wise?
Just think of something stupid to say and then don't say it.
Now They're Choosing Sides. At 1:55 AM
August 30, 2007
I am fffffing bored!!!!!
So dad just got me a new phone.
Wanted orange but they told me it was OBSELETE!
But before dad came i asked, and the guy said there's orange available.
Turned out he thought I asked him about another model.
Why he like to play with my feelings?!?!!
:(
Anyways.
I'm happy.
I swore to Dad that when I work, and get my pay..
I'll pay him back slowly.
Ok anyways, I am bored.
Yeah.
Bored.
How?
Haiz.
Pesta Sukan is coming.
And i'm playing for Northland.
Ghee.
I gotta practice.
Okay,
This entry actually got nothing interesting ah.
So okay.
YAY!
Bye.
Now They're Choosing Sides. At 11:35 PM
August 29, 2007
When people do not ignore what they should ignore, but ignore what they should not ignore, this is known as ignorance.
I'm sick.
Sick of having to be sick about things.
Sick of being a mother fucking melancholist.
It's time to move on ah.
So everything else, fuck it.
When a miracle happens,
I realize another good thing gets ruined.
So now I really don't know ah.
What to believe, who to believe, whatever.
Ah.
Fcuk fcuk fcuk.
Can I like, not be stressed?
How?
Somebody, tell me how.
I think I may have a psychiatric disorder.
Come on, pull the trigger already.
Make Nur Shaheila become poof.
POOF I say. :(
oh, fuck.
Now They're Choosing Sides. At 10:59 PM
August 28, 2007
WAH!!!
Miracles do happen.
Now They're Choosing Sides. At 9:27 PM
I am so going to find work since I have 3 weeks of holidays.
I need 180 bucks.
I want to buy the OC seasons 1, 2, and 3 and they cost like, 60 bucks each. :(
Anyways.
I suddenly have this sucky feeling.
Maybe it's because I have changed class and i'm in total anxiety of who my classmates are next semester.
What if they're totally boring?
What if there was no one like Sabrina?
Ok this sucks. Big time.
Ok this kind of thing maybe NOW I can use that theory.
Get over it & move on...
Boo.
Ooh, by the ways.
I had a weird but wonderful, extremely wonderful dream this morning.
Shall tell it in the next entry maybe.
W14D. :(
Now They're Choosing Sides. At 2:50 PM
